A little give, A little go

I was at the ISES event at Ventanas tonight and was talking to a friend about astrological signs. I am not well versed in the world of astrology, but it is so facinating to me. Apparently there are two sides to your sign - one that you see and one that others see. No, this is not just because I am a Gemini and think Gemini’s are fabulous, it’s true for all signs. So it also got me thinking about what we give and take, what we sacrifice and obtain. What you dream of doing and what you actually do, where you are professionally and where you want to be, the relationship you have settled on versus the relationship that you long to have.

There is so much give and take in life depending on circumstances and choices we make. How do we know when we are giving too much and not taking our share?? When do we begin to sacrifice ourselves in order to please others? How do we even recognize it when we are doing it? I feel like I have always been someone who is a giver; I give my time, my money, my ideas, my opinions and my heart to all of those people around me. And I also know on the flip side I have been at times a lousy friend, a slacker at work and a dramatic companion. How do we find that middle ground?

Well, here is my attempt at the truth: All we can do is try. There it is, plain and simple. There are no light bulbs, no trumpets sounding, and no fireworks. Life isn't easy and we should have never expected that it would be. We make choices and live with them, good or bad.

In my life I try to be an available and helpful friend, a loyal employee, and a loving companion. I want all of these things and if I get spread thin or if I am underappreciated in the process, it’s OK. This is something I have to begin telling myself otherwise I will go crazy! My point here is that I am thinking about it. I am making a conscience effort to recognize and accept the choices I make, and I hope you will too. Being perceptive to me is like being graceful. It is your intuition and something you were born with. So get out there and use it.