The Rat Race

Today I have decided to do absolutely nothing. Seriously, when I woke up I thought to myself, you are allowed to have one day that doesn't require you to move, talk to anyone or do anything. I would like to say that it could pass for a day of meditation and wellness, but I have been watching LOST and Madmen for like 8 hours, so I think it I am having more of a TV vegfest. In the moment, it was heaven.

But this evening it got me to thinking, should I consider it a reboot or a waste of time? I mean, you can only do so much in a weekend, and you don't have to have consent plans every day until you die. But I always feel terribly guilty for laying around and not engaging in something for my health. On the flip side, we all live these fast paced lives that require so much time and energy, yet create a whirlwind of anxiety. Sometimes you need to get off the grid, right? 

A good friend once told me this saying, and I think of it all the time. "You run round and round trying to win the rat race. If you are lucky enough to win, at the end of the day, you are still a rat." This is somewhat disturbing to me to think of how hard I work and try to get ahead, it may not really ever change the outcome of where I end up. I like to consider myself an optimist, and looking back over the past 8 years that I have been working I can see how far I have come. I started as an intern at an Advertising agency in Charlotte, NC and now, I am the Marketing and Programming Manager of beautiful park in Washington, DC! I think it is safe to say that while I might be a rat, I am a pretty darn lucky one. Sometimes it takes looking back on how hard you have worked to recognize everything you have done has gotten you to the here and now. Success doesn't happen overnight, or in just one race.

So for now I am okay with taking a day here and there where I can just "be." I am an independent successful 29 year old (for 27 more days) and am so excited about the direction my future is headed. Now, I need to get back to first episode of season 4 of LOST. I mean, at lease I am actually not off the grid.