Holidays, Snow and Sleep Deprivation

Well, it's 10pm and I am just sitting at my "home office" preparing for tomorrow's morning meeting, having a glass (or three) of wine and wondering what the hell is wrong with me. I mean, my favorite time of year is winter, I love cold weather, snow (and Atlanta's got some!) and festive events. I purchased a few key pieces during the Thanksgiving rush to wear, but I haven't had the opportunity because I have been slaving over work events, my life. My heart can't give it up! Also, I am dating a fabulous man who adores me, but I can seldom find the time to be with him. Excuse? WORK. So that has me wondering, how do you love your job and maintain a healthy balance of personal time? How do you truly make your heart happy?

Last week my good friend and savior, Elle, invited me to a fabulous Burlesque dance class which awakened me. I felt alive for the first time in months, hell - maybe years. Then I went to a vinyasa yoga class which I used to do three times a week when I lives in Charlotte, but have abandoned for almost five years. It was wonderful, inspiring, amazing. I am a victim of other peoples pleasure. If they are happy I am for a short while, and then I am empty. Alone.

I guess this is a lonely girl spinning her wheels, but I am working my way back into happiness. I really am a happy and loving person, but I wish I was content with being alone like I used to be. Young, naive, alive and free. Well, maybe everything but the naive part. That was brutal!

So my never-ending promise and prayer for myself is to have grace, life balance and love. I think I will accomplish one of those one day. More love soon...xoxo