I happened to be thumbing through an old journal this morning and came across several passages from 2006-2007. At the time I was going through transition in Charlotte, and little did I know I was moving my pawn into the shortest path to the King, Washington DC, my favorite place on earth. There were a lot of things that surprised me about the entries: the fact that I was blaming myself for the bad relationship I was in, that I was still criticizing my weight and finally, that I was actively dreaming of DC. It is amazing how without your past you can never be who you are in the present. Without each of those feelings, mostly of insecurity and discovery, I accomplished my dream and ROCKED IT. It does conjure feelings of sadness (and yes, I am guilty as charged for watching A Capital Fourth and balling my eyes out,) but also feelings of control and empowerment! I did it! I had a dream and went for it. It cost me a relationship, but it gave me a world of endless possibilities. The girl in those entries was inspired by something, and it is time for that girl to find something new to draw inspiration from.
The following is an entry from April 14, 2008, my first spring living in DC. These things are such a blessing and a present to myself.
"Things I LOVE about DC"
*Cherry Blossoms
*Reservoir Road - the smell of fabric softener coming from the historic homes
*The white house on the corner of 35th and Res - the vines on the porch create a wonderful canopy over the porch. Just beautiful :)
*The cobblestone streets that attack your high heels
*Watching people row on the Potomac
*Driving around the monuments at night: The Washington Monument, stunning. The best, Jefferson Memorial
*The Capitol's floor - tiles that have been walked on by greatness, and me.
I think its time for a new dream, now I just have to find the inspiration.
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