As we move into the fall season, a time of year that is so nostalgic to me because of the fall foliage, college football and the cooler temperatures I have been craving since the spring, I am hit with a wave of anxiety. I have realized that moving forward in life doesn't necessarily get easier. The more we grow the more responsibilities we have and the more we have to do. I am currently in my "busy season" at work. Long hours and weekend work has reemerged, but its nothing compared to the work I did just two years ago. I am also feeling lonely even though I am sharing my life with the man I love, I am feeling lost in my profession and longing for the companionship of my friends. What a "fall down."
It doesn't help that a year ago this past weekend I lost my grandfather and it seems like so many ends are happening all around me. One of my best friends just lost her beloved Gaga, and last night Paul lost his secretary in a horrible wreck. Life is so short and I can't help but feel I am filling mine with all of the wrong things. As my mother said recently, it might be time to re-prioritize my life and the things in it.
It has been weeks since I have enjoyed catching up with friends, and I finally picked myself up off the couch to visit with a few of my girls this weekend. But I know it isn't enough. My sanity and heart can't take it much longer. The drifting apart that we all experience is shaking me to my core and I hope that I can bounce back.
I don't mean for this entry to be a downer, I just need to focus on the things that can make me stronger, laugh louder and be the best version of myself I can be.
So I am proposing a challenge to all of you. Make time for you loved ones - even those who seem too busy. Reach out to your friends, they need you more than you know and enjoy the little things. They all add up and will make you feel complete.
Oh yeah, and if any of you have fabulous new fall clothes, please send pictures...fashion is definitely still a priority.
All my love,
Lacy June
